A Princess' Lair

Another Goodbye?

2008-04-21T14:11:00.000-07:00

It's all coming back to me again. :(
I slept at around 3:45AM because I was busy texting with someone very special.
Yes,I loved him before but we both know that were better off as friends.

2 months ago,he told me that he'll be leaving the country to have a vacation at California with his dad.I thought that he will be coming back here right on time for the opening of classes but I guess it wouldn't be that way.He's not sure if he'll still be going back because the decision is up to his father, so more or less he won't be coming back anymore.He'd left for the states this 8 in the morning.Sad :(

I'd certainly miss him.He's one of my true friends although I just met him last year.A confidante,a kuya and a joker is what he is to me.He'd make me laugh when I'm down and would cheer me up whenever I'm frustrated about my studies.Aww,I wish he didn't have to go.

Saying goodbye has never been easy for anyone.I remember November of 2006 when I also shed tears for a friend who had to migrate on the States and now I am on that situation again.I wish to see him again someday.I'LL SUPER MISS HIM.

So to you,kilala mo naman kung sino ka eh.Mag-iingat ka dun ha?Pakabait ka.If mag-decide tatay mo na pabalikin ka dito sa Pilipinas,sabihin mo agad sa'kin para ako unang bubulagta sa gate ng bahay n'yo.Mamimiss kita ng sobra,wala na akong ka-puyatan at kaasaran.Kumain ka ng marame dun,gusto ko pag nakita kita ulit mataba ka na.Basta I'm just a buzz away lang naman sa YM or itext mo ko,rereplyan kita kahit mahal.Bleh!Labyoo Yatot.

Cupcakes and Nursing

2008-04-10T23:39:00.000-07:00

At last,I have a new layout.Haha.I just find cupcakes cute although I don't eat them.I just love looking at them because of their colors.

Anyways,I haven't been attending the required summer classes for nursing students since I'm not yet enrolled.Crap!But I'll be enrolling na next week since the start of the summer classes of my future school will be starting on Monday and their allowing transferees to enroll late.Hahahaha.

Actually,I'm having second thoughts regarding my course, on whether I'll pursue it or not but I think I will since sayang naman ang 2 taon na pinaghirapan ko.Hopefully 2 years more then goodbye college.Oh,I'll still be taking the Local Board Exams since I don't have plans yet of getting employed abroad maybe it'll take time to convince me to work on foreign land as a nurse.

I told myself that if ever I get to finish nursing I won't get myself a job in another country eventhough it means that getting a lower pay.Of course I want to provide for my family and get them a better living but for me, I can give them that without me living the Philippines.Haha.I'm being Nationalistic.

I'm not against those who take Nursing as a ticket to settle their foot on foreign land because I know how hard it is to earn money here in our country.Its just that, it isn't my thing yet.
Who knows diba?I may eat up my word but not for now.

Err.I think I should end this stuff.,it's nonsense.I know. :P
Goodnight everyone.

NEW

2008-04-01T08:18:00.000-07:00

It has been what, 4 months since I last updated this blog.LOL.
Many things had happened,good and bad.Btw,I wanted to make a new layout but I don't know how to upload it here in blogger because the settings have changed,can someone teach me how?please?

Anyways,I haven't been qualified to attend my third year in college at Trinity because of certain circumstances like my GPA which didn't reach the required quota.

Although I didn't made it to St.Luke's College of Nursing, I know that God wants what's best for me.He knows I tried every possible way to get in. I am BITTER, yes, because not only I'll be leaving my school for the first half year of college life but those lucky people who get through and have been my friends for 2 years.But not passing doesn't make me or some of my friends who didn't get lucky a failure, it just shows that not everything we wanted will be given to us. Gasgas man ang line na 'to pero totoo " THERE'S ALWAYS A REASON FOR EVERYTHING ". I may not made it but I'm keeping the FAITH and for me that's all that matter.
For those who passed the screening, I salute you guys, your works paid off, you'll be wearing that BLUE and WHITE milkmaid uniform.Keep up the good work.You deserve it, continue to make us proud.

And to those who didn't get in--like me, don't be sad.It's not yet the end for us, who knows we may be one of the board topnotchers, ahem!haha.Kidding aside, there's something better instore for us,God wants us to look for other options, not only in Trinity but in other Nursing schools maybe.Be sad about it for a while,then,move on.Don't let it be a hindrance in attaining what we want in life.

After all GREAT NURSES DON'T JUST COME FROM ST.LUKE'S COLLEGE OF NURSING as what my friend have told me.

Aja guys :)

Chances

2007-11-08T21:23:00.000-08:00

Second sem had officially started last Monday and as expected there were only orientations during the first meetings in some of our subjects and some of our profs didn't even bothered to drop by in our class,even just for the checking of attendance.

I'm in 2nu24 right now and I miss my old blockmates,those perky faces,high pitched voice that you'll hear in the 4 corners of our room.Good thing 11 of us came from 2nu27.Oh,we even thought that our class will be dissolved due to the number of the students enrolled but our MicroPara adviser told us that we won't be dissolved anymore because were almost 30 students.Sections 11 and 12 are the ones who'll be dissolved so were just waiting for those who'll be added in our section.

Btw,I was elected as Class Treasurer.I ate up my word.LOL.I told myself that I wouldn't be a Class Treasurer--ever.But it did not turn out that way.Hahaha.
There are only 5 set of class officers and 3 of those came from 2nu27 last sem.Hahaha.
We outnumbered the rest of those who came from other sections,were like one big barkada.
Gawd,it made me miss the bond of 2nu27 and I certainly miss Yna,my Kupsi,she enrolled late that's why she wasn't able to be a nu24 student. :(

This Second Sem will be a challenge for me.I need to make bawi with my grades.
Even if I can't continue my course in my present school,I'm still determined to make it until the end--until the end of the second sem.This is the only chance I get to get it through.

SCHOOL RANDOMS

2007-10-30T21:24:00.000-07:00

Finally,I'm enrolled and just waiting for the classes to start though bitin pa ako sa sembreak but having classes means having a weekly allowance.Haha.I hate it when I have no classes because aside from the fact that I have no money during breaks, it also means having my ass glued in front of my computer or in front of the television for one freaking whole day.

And what excites me the most for the incoming 2nd sem is that I am classmates again with my 2 favorite girls--Jhonna and Liz but Yna wasn't able to enroll with us because she forgot her card which is needed for the assessment.Super haba ng pila,nakaka-pagod,muntik pa kami masaraduhan ng cashier's office,good thing they were considerate enough.

I'm ok with my schedule though I hate my PE class--swimming 8-10AM-Wednesdays.
Ayoko matosta!I don't like to be a toasted bread.Huhuhu.

MicroPara and RLE for majors---be kind enough to us,please?!

Losing HOPE

2007-10-18T21:14:00.000-07:00

What would you feel if it seems like your efforts are being thrown into trash?
I feel useless,stupid,idiot and a disappointment in all.I've really tried my best but I guess my best wasn't that enough.I tried everything that I can just to excel but I still think it was useless.

I used to be full of hope in everything I do.I have faith in myself.Even if others around me are losing hope,still,I cheer them up in the best possible way but this time arund,I'm the one who's LOSING HOPE. Please,help me try to regain myself,to see the positive side of all the things that is happening around me, to still smile inspite of all the shits life has been throwing at me lately.Help me pray,I really need it. *sighs*

Help me not to lose hope, to regain my hope in everything I do.please :(

YUHOO..SEMBREAK

2007-10-08T22:16:00.000-07:00

I've been to busy lately.As in BUSY.Last week was our movie presentation for our Oral Communications finals.It went well though there had been some interruptions but it went perfectly just fine.We had our class portfolio done for our NSTP.And 1 more retdem to go then were done for our Health Care subject.

This week is our finals week.Can you please define EYEBAGS and TOXIC?Nursing course will really stress you out and yes, drive you nuts.We just took our Anatomy practicals this evening and I can say that it is quite easy than the past practical exams we had.But,uhmm,hello?can someone please tell me how to review 19 chapters of book?Grabe naman ang mga prof ng school namin,cover to cover?walang awa,walang patawad.tsktsk.

I need prayers,I really need it badly.

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And I should've been studying for Humanities final exams tomorrow.Lazy me,this isn't me.

DESPERATE

2007-09-22T21:53:00.000-07:00

Dana's in constant need of steroids right now.Could someone please give me.
You see, things are beyond human's control but we can, however make things better,right?
I'm just getting desperate each and everyday to find the real meaning of happiness.
Material things doesn't content me for I'm not a materialistic person, sure it makes me glad receiving this and that but in the end of the day I'm still waiting for that nirvana to come within me.

Friends and family do make me happy and satisfied yet I know something's lacking.
May it be someone?something?I don't know either which of the factors might be missing but I know there is something.Oh yes,I'm being redundant.

I am desperate and waiting and hoping and wishing. *sighs*

2007-09-07T20:41:00.000-07:00

I'M GIVING UP

I'm loving Nursing,yes,but Anatomy is really frustrating.TUA makes it hard for the 2nd year students to get a 2 GPA to be able to step into 3rd year,especially regarding with Anatomy and Physiology subject.Darn it!Ayoko na,suko na ko.My Cerebral Cortex isn't functioning anymore.
I'm in need of that f*cking Anatomy for me to wear that Blue and White milkmaid uniform.
But,they make it hard for,US.Only 10 passed the midterm exam,70% passing rate?wtf?!

2007-09-02T22:43:00.000-07:00

PARENTS CAN BE BRAT TOO

Oh yes,definitely.You see,they think that their always right and seems as if they know everything about life--EVERYTHING!

This afternoon,my mom was asking me to fix her newly bought phone because she don't know how to operate it yet,she's not used in a motorola phone,of course,I taught her how to do this and that but she can't get it and I just woke up that time because I came home late from a party.And then she bursted into anger.What I can't take is that she told me that I don't know anything.I just ask for this and that,which in fact is not true.Whenever,I buy things for myself,it's from my own money that I saved from my allowance.But of course,it's their duty to give me allowance because in the first place I can't support myself--yet.I'm still studying.

I'm not asking you to be on my side,I don't even know if someone reads my blog.
Err,I just can't understand.Para namang wala na akong ginagawang tama.Sana kasi iniisip naman minsan yung mga sinasabi,nakaka-sakit din naman no.Anak lang ako pero,hello?!tao pa rin naman ako.Wtf?!I'm teary eyed.And yes,she's mad.Oh,whatever!

2007-08-30T21:57:00.000-07:00

LETTING GO

Things right now are quite different.I've finally decided to end all the connections I have with this person--well,not totally.You see,I've been so attached to this person for this past few months, considering the fact that I've just known him back in summer.I missed being with him every week,hearing mass every Sundays,late night phone calls,exchanging text messages until the wee hours of the morning but I had to end things sooner before anything else begins.I just wish I could go back to the way we once were.But I had to let go,he was not mine in the first place,I need to give him up although the pain kills me because I know this is the best way for the both of us.I need to grow all by myself--without him.

My personal life really needs an overhaul.Studies are FRUSTRATING.I've never gotten this grades in my enter life.I felt that I've been thrown into a pool full of ice.I was in shock upon receiving my Humanities test paper.Wtf?!I need my minors to pull up my grade so I can maintain the 2.00 GPA needed to be able to step into third year, for me to be able to wear the blue and white milkmaid uniform.My dreams are now being torn into pieces--bit by bit.But I'm letting go of that frustration.I still have semi-finals and finals although it's too short.I need to believe in myself.What's the use of being in the qualifiers for honors during my secondary years if I will not use it diba?

Sometimes, letting go is the best option.

2007-08-22T17:04:00.000-07:00

FOR NURSING STUDENTS AND NURSES

I was hungry and i could not feed myself
you left my food tray out of my reach
on my bedside table
then discussed my nutritional needs during nursing conference

i was thirsty and helpless but you forget
to ask the attendant to refill my pitcher
you later charted that i refused fluids

i was lonely and afraid but you left me alone
because i was not cooperative and never ask for anything
i was in a financial difficulties and
in your mind i become an object of annoyance

i was a nursing problem and you discussed
the theoretical basis of my illness in which you dont see me
i was though to be dying and thinking i couldn't hear
you hope i wouldn't die before it was time to finish your day
because you had an appointment at the parlor before you evening date.

you seem so well educated, well spoken and very neat
in your wrinkle free and spotless uniform
but when i speak,
you seem to listenbut you dont hear me

help me care about what happen to mei'am so tired, so lonely and very afraidtalk to me, reach to me, take my handlet what happens to me matters to you.. PLEASE NURSE..

* I got this from Charm's site, I was touched so I decided to post it here.

i-haven't-outgrown-it-yet?

2007-08-15T23:05:00.000-07:00

Due to the suspension of classes and boredom,I put the dvd of my 18th birthday in the dvd player and watched it over again.And so while I'm watching the video,it made me go back to that very night wherein I am overwhelmed with the number of people who came.

But I haven't notice that it has been 7 month since I turned 18.I felt that I've haven't outgrown being 17--yet.I feel that January just passed by but I'm still stucked into 2006 mode.
It made me realize that I still need some maturity and lessen my being a 'brat'.

I used to complain about the things that doesn't go my way,but I'm learning to accept the realities of life.Yes,I'm becoming much mature now.Contradicting isn't it?but some things are really contradictory in life.Life is never been made to be simple,we should be appreciative of it though.

Being 18 really teaches you many things.You should be responsible enough to take care of yourself and all the things that is happening around you and the way you decide for yourself.

Err,am I talking non-sense here?Or am I becoming self absorbed?Just bear with me.

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Brr,No classes again tomorrow--All levels!

It's been long

2007-07-23T21:36:00.000-07:00

Yes,it's been a long time since I last updated my blog,well,I don't even know if someone visits my blog for any matter,but I don't care. :)

1st sem has been hectic for me.July pa lang super haggard na 'ko,what more sa mga darating pa na buwan.
Actually,you can almost dig my eyebags,well, literally and figuratively =p
I'm loving nursing na but there's a part of me that wants to hate it because I can't even find time for myself anymore.Good thing,my girlfriends are there to support me all throughout the way.I'm looking forward for our community service in our NSTP subject and Health Care RLE.It's going to be lots of fun,I'm sure.

As for my new section,all of us are getting along pretty well although there are 'groups' in the class,still we know when to be united especially now that TUA-SLCN will be trimming the 27 sections to i-don't-know-how-many in 2nd sem.I just hope I'll be able to pass their standards or if not,I'll look for other nursing school,it's my last option in case.

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It's been long since I felt this kind of feeling.Although he doesn't know that he's the one I've been blabbing and ranting all the time, it's still fine with me because I'm not complaining and I won't even dare to complain.
But as the days pass by,I've grown tired of loving someone who doesn't even have a clue on what I'm feeling.
I'm sick and tired of waiting for him to completely be over someone who doesn't even appreciates his wholeness and individuality.Yes,I'm not forcing him to completely forget about her because in the first place, he met her first before me but don't you think it's a little bit OA to love someone who pushed you away for already 2 years?Okay,I'm not complaining but I'm getting weaker and weaker each day.

He makes me smile and makes me laugh even with the little and simplest things in life.He made me see how beautiful life is, he's actually the one who encouraged me to love my course.He picked me up when I was very down and when I was at my ugliest.He's my confidante and a very loyal FRIEND.
I don't know if he feels something for me,I don't even want to know what he feels because I'm afraid I may not be able to take it the right way.My heart has been crushed many times,those whom I trusted and gave my love just threw it away and I'm afraid that it will and might happen again.I'm scared to feel lost and alone once more--friends and family is out of the context.

Yes,we see each other every week,text each other until the wee hours of the morning but am I getting what I deserve?Or I'm just seeking for more although I know in myself that it's very impossible to get it.

He makes me happy and feel secure but,yet,he makes me sad--once more. =(

FOR SO lONG

2007-06-05T21:37:00.000-07:00

I've been depressed for about a week already and I lost weight,now that's something. :)
I can't tell my feelings towards someone because I'm SCARED,yes,I am a scaredy cat.I'm not a risk taker and I think I don't have guts to be one.

Anyhow,evernthough I'm feeling crappy I still managed to keep my faith despite of it all.I'll get through this.Sana nga.

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I'm officially enrolled.On the 13th of June,I'll be a sophomore student already.Oh yeah,I continued my course.Bait na bata ako eh.This sem will be a Jhonna-full sem.My new camwhore buddy. =)
I'll miss my old blockmates though.Abby and the rest of my girlets,how sad.

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I miss him na! :(

Issue

2007-05-10T22:19:00.000-07:00

There are so many issues around me that I just can't take for granted.I knowI shouldn't post this because it's kinda personal but I can't help but to blab it here.This is the only way I know how and I know where I can pour my emotions,thoughts or even just sharing how my day went.

Suddenly,everything went blank.I don't know how to face my cousin who's having a dillemma right now.I don't want to be plastic,pretending that I do not know what's happening with her.
I want to hug her and comfort her but I don't know how because I told my mom that I won't spill anything to them or to her for that matter, without them telling it to me directly.
You see,I can't really tell it her that direct because it's a family issue but I did not expect that this issue or this dillemma would happen within our family.I often joke around,telling my friends back home in Batangas that it would never happen.

It really saddens me,I'm away from them,from her.I'm here in Manila and they're in Batangas.
I know their having a hard time dealing with it and treating each other this time around. :(
I'm really close to my cousins on my father side since I do not have a sister or brother,they're the ones I grew up with,kasing-edad ika nga (not literally).

Bek is one of my favorite cousins in the whole universe (her nickname btw) and I really didn't see these things coming her way,their way,our way.My dad and tito don't know anything about this,even my lola (dad's mom) and the rest of our relatives in my dad's side.Only me and my mom aside from my cousin's mom and siblings, knows about this issue.

I do not know on how everyone would react and will accept when they'll finally know about this.
I look up to her,we have high hopes for her.But whatever happens,I'll be just here,a shoulder to cry on or just by being a cousin and a friend,I'll always be Bek's sweetie. :)

And I know,GOD would not leave her in pain and will be there and will always be there for her.

Disappointed and Stressed?

2007-05-04T21:42:00.000-07:00

It's already May and on the 7th,I'll be in front of Mrs.Maglaque,listening to her discussion,sitting my ass in my arm chair while my cousins,on father side,are having fun because of our town fiesta.That's what I hate on having summer classes,not being able to attend family gatherings because I have to, of course, prioritize my studies.But I'm really disappointed because I'm the only one who can't go in our town fiesta,I'll be missing the street party and the foooooooodddddsss. *sighs*

And since,one week left then it'll be our finals, I have to work really hard to earn that grade I've been aiming.Hell week is fast approaching. =/

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I didn't attend my 4-6 class this afternoon due to my monthly period.
As usual,I again experienced dysmennhoria and I felt stressed out eh?
Whatever.I really do need a break,good thing Hannah will treat me tomorrow :)
Were going to have another bestfriend bonding.

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[edit]
I had my layout changed,although it's not as nice as others but it reflects my personality :)

Randomness

2007-04-22T09:11:00.000-07:00

I haven't posted for a while.I was just busy since I'm currently attending summer classes.
It was fun though, I got to meet new blockmates and got myself new friends as well.
Meeting new people has always been FUN.

Btw,I'm currently thinking of a new layout.Any suggestions?or might as well make one for me.haha :p

My bestfriend's birthday is approaching and I still have no ideas on what to give her.Rarness!

Do you think Jake Cuenca is hot?haha.I super adore him.LOL

Pardon me,I'm just bored and I thin this post is becoming self-absorbed.

SUMMER VACATION/CLASSES

2007-04-09T20:43:00.000-07:00

Yes,summer has officially started but my summer vacation has officially ended because by tomorrow,I'll be going back to school to attend my summer classes.Boo!
But its perfectly fine for me because summer classes means that I won't be a couch potato anymore here in our house and I have my baon pa =)

My summer vacation has been fine and now,I'm broke.haha
Good thing I have classes.But I'll miss hanging out with friends and speaking of friends,I,actually Hannah and I met new friends--TJ and Jed,the chooszy boys.LOL

Woo,I'm running out of words so I'll end it up right here :)

FINE

2007-04-02T21:15:00.000-07:00

Yes,everything's getting better and better and I'm feeling much ok now.
Going out with my bestfriends really helped and the weekend trip to Batangas to visit my relatives really did help.

I can face tomorrow in an optimistic way now.Yaay for me

OOh, just so you know,I've been feeling a bit odd and crappy this past few days which lead me to a certain depression that I cannot explain and I pretended to be fine in those days wherein,in fact, I'm not.Weird?Yeah. :/

But as I said,everything's running smoothly.

rekindle the old flame?

2007-03-23T22:34:00.000-07:00

let me warn you,it's not about my lovelife because i don't know if i can consider it as a lovelife.lol :D

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I went out with Abby this afternoon.It was hella tiring but fun at the same time.Being with my friends takes away my sadness and I can be in my most crazy state.LOL

Just as I may share,Abby and I had been friends since our preparatory years,so that would amount to 11 years already.We practically grew up together,we've been in the same school since prep until high school.
I saw her how she turned to be a fine young lady from a little messy girl who would usually cry on one side of our yellow bus when her mom leaves her for work.She has seen me turning into a lady as well from a geek and nerdy type of girl. :)

But we haven't talked for a year during our last year in high school,it was only during the summer vacation when were able to patch things up again.We have always been in catfights but we didn't let a week,a day or two pass without saying sorry to each other.It was only during that time when we'd let hatred and pain eat ourselves and yes,PRIDE overtook us.

And yet,after all of the things that had happen,we still decided to continue the friendship we had once started.
We discovered,that,we still have the same tastes on whatever thing that may be.And since we practically grew up together,she has seen me in my best and my worst and I've seen her in her's too.

So whatever problem that would encounter our friendship,I know that we would stand tall,because,we would not let anyone or anything hinder our way of attaining the pact we made,and that is,to be FRIENDS FOREVER.

danabby for life :)

Oh,and yes,we had rekindle the old flame :)

Etcetera

2007-03-17T20:32:00.000-07:00

I can't think any title that would fit this post,so I just decided to put etecetera.connection?nah.whatever.

Anyways,school's done and my butt is ready to go on gimmicks,yeah baby.I only barely have 3 weeks to enjoy my vacation since I'll be taking up summer classes.It sucks but I'll love it though because classes means--moolah. ü

I got 80/90 for our lab finals,my brain extraction turned out to be a mess because my froggie's brain was divided into two.I'm so careless,that's why I get a minus 10 for that matter but I had a perfect score for the eye extraction which is equal to 20. =)

But I hate Logic.Boo.I swear.I wonder what my score is?!And i don't want to think about it too much or else,I'll just get a paranoia.

I should enjoy my vacation diba?

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My yaya for 5 years already left yesterday morning.She'll be getting married on the 10th of April kasi.
Aww,I'll miss her so much.She's like my own sister that's why we consider her as part of the family.

But as the cliche' goes, when someone leaves, someone better will arrive.I just hope she'll be like Ate Ruby.

EXAMS

2007-03-14T20:51:00.000-07:00

Yeah,it's our finals week and I'm currently in front of my PC,surfing,ym-ing,teentalking and blogging.Haha

Wuhoo,Logic exams tomorrow,5 items worth 100 points,wtf!
and for that,I would love to kill Sir Guevarra.haha.
He's cute though,but he's not my type.hahaha

Birthday :)

2007-03-10T23:26:00.000-08:00

It's my mom's 49th birthday and next year will be her golden year. :)

We had salo-salo here at home with my relatives-slash-neighbors and my bestfriend Jem.Too bad,Angelo and Hannah wasn't around because of school commitments.

Anyways,what can I say?

Happy Birthday Mommy.Love u. :)

And I need to go,antok na ko.Were going to Batangas tomorrow morning pa because it'll be my granny's birthday. :)

AYOKO NA

2007-02-28T21:46:00.000-08:00

I hate it when I have my period,boo.Aside from the fact that I feel uneasy,I hate having dysmenhorria (?)
I was rushed to the hospital because my BP went down to 80/60.goodness!

IM ANEMIC!!

And again,I had my CBC test for the nth time around,it's a monthly routine for me btw.lol
My blood pressure is always under observation,my anemia is Nutritional Anemia.brr

I HATE HOSPITAL.I HATE NEEDLES.I HATE BLOOD COUNT.

HELL-O MONDAY/SUICIDAL WEEK

2007-02-26T21:09:00.000-08:00

Our plan to do our research has finally been confirm this morning at UP Science Lib.
At long last, me and my groupmates are finished collecting sources needed for our paper which will be equivalent for our final exam, meaning we don't have written exams anymore but..DEFENSE.

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Had our lecture and lab quiz at Zoology and I swear, I'm not sure about my answers in our lecture quiz for I haven't reviewed well because of that English paper,darn it!And I haven't answered 5 items in our lab quiz as well for I forgot the parts of the dorsal muscle of my frog.huhu. :(

I've been caught, actually me and my groupmates were caught by rain before our 1:30 class which is Zoo in T.Morato because we had our lunch at Sizzling Stop.And now,I am suffering from colds.I'm such a sickly person and I hate it.

I HATE MONDAY!This day hasn't been good to me. :(

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Tomorrow will be our defense for our Filipino paper.I would want to kill two of my groupmates ( not literally )
because they are not paying such effort to our paper.I don't even know if they understood what I have discussed them about our paper.Grrr.

SUICIDAL WEEK, here I come..again. :x ( I thought it was over )

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It was such a nice feeling being with him again last Saturday night.How I wish it would always be like this.
If only...

2007-02-23T22:19:00.000-08:00

I'm so stressed-out today, as in.Went at UP Lib,Science Building along with my friends-slash-groupmates to do some research for our English paper.We arrived at the Lib for outsiders at around 4:45 in the afternoon and were not anymore allowed to enter because they'll be closing at 5 pm.Waah,nakaka-frustrate.Nasayang lahat, effort, oras at pera.Peste kasing English paper yan eh.Ba't kasi hindi na lang i-accept yung Collection of Readings namin?
Baka tuloy pumunta pa kami sa UP sa Monday,take note,may palaka akong dala nun,kamusta naman?
Ayoko na.Yung eyebags ko humihingi na talaga ng saklolo.I miss my bed. :(

Buti na lang,we've already submitted our Chapter 3 in Filipino.We just have to discuss about our defense which will be next week.SUICIDAL WEEK 'TO.

OT:

I miss him na. :(

BREAK ARE YOU THERE?

2007-02-21T22:16:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is our semi-final exam in Zoology 111.I'm actually done reviewing but parang lahat ng nireview onti lang ang pumasok sa utak ko, it seems that my Cerebral Cortex isn't functioning well.Wuhhoo.Ganito ang epekto ng stressed-out sa school,pati surface ng Cerebrum ko kinukulikat ko na.Syeett.Epitaxis na ito, other term for Nosebleed.Nyahaha.

Ay teka, hindi nga pala kasama ang Nervous System sa topics for exam, report ko nga pala yun.Hay naku, isang malaking good luck sa visual aid ko.Pa'no naman kasi, hindi kami nakapagpa-reserve ni Abby dear sa AVR para sa reporting. At saan ako makakaita ng Anastamosis? (alternative route of blood). Kelangan ko din ng alternative route.Grabe na ito, iba na talaga epekto ng Zoology sa'kin.

Meron pang lab quiz.Kumusta naman ang Dorsal Parts ng muscles ng palaka?at kelangan talaga na oral yun noh?tusukin ang muscle parts ni Froggywoowiie ko, na medyo nung nag-skinning of the frog kami eh may na-tear out na muscle sa bandang leeg?kawawa naman palaka ko, hubad na nga, malnourished na, tutusukin pa.Halos third degree murder na yun ah.

At, may Filipino paper pa kami, na ipapasa ang chapter 3 sa Friday.Bale 5 kami sa grupo e, pero bakit parang 3 lang kaming gumagawa?Irvin?Nathaniel?Hindi kayo nakokonsensya?Baka naman kahit pano gusto n'yo mag-donate ng onting barya (abuloy na ito) para sa pag-print ng paper NATIN, kahit yun na lang tulong n'yo,pwede?Grrrr. :x

At isa pa, (grabe ang dami) may English paper pa kami.Waaaah.Punta pa kami sa UP Lib sa Friday after class para mag-research about Shiitake Mushroom.Bakit naman kasi kulang pa kami ng Collection of readings?Ayoko na.
Yung eyebags ko humihingi na ng tulong, as in kelangan na n'ya. :(

AYOKO NA TALAGA.I NEED A BREAK.MAY BREAK BA?NGARAG NA NGARAG NA AKO.
PARUSA NA ITOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

SWEET AND NEW

2007-02-20T21:50:00.000-08:00

Yes,I had my layout done na.So girly with full of sweets, since this past few days, I've been craving for sweets. Actually, tomorrow will be our Semi-Final exam in CE 102 and I haven't even scan my notes, I'm such a crammer.tsk.

Piles of paperworks are waiting for me.Filipino paper, English paper and my everdearest Zoology report.
I swear, my Zoology prof is fond of having last minute changes,ack!She's generous in giving grades though. ;)

This week is a HELL WEEK.

And plus, my heart is temporarily in the Intensive Care Unit.Things are messed up,I may say.

2007-02-14T20:55:00.000-08:00

HAPPY HEARTS DAY :)

The title says it all.Valentine's day isn't just for couples but for singles too.And for those who has a complicated lovelife,put the bitterness aside and enjoy the day with your friends and family.I just did and something happened unexpectedly,it was worth though.
So for those who are taken,single-slash-taken,single-slash-happy,to all of you.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

2007-02-03T22:44:00.000-08:00

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My insanity needs transition. :(
I shouldn't be like this in the first place,I shouldn't have been.
Things right now are beyond my control,I just couldn't take it.Bit by bit,I'm losing my mind and it looks like no one's there to help me stand up from where I fell off.

It seems that everything around me is odd.I'm messing things up.They messed things up,HE messed things up for me.I just couldn't contain it.I'm nostalgic,depressed and paradoxically insane.
Shit!I'm blogging non sense.

I BADLY NEED TRANSITION!!

2007-01-26T19:41:00.000-08:00

HELL WEEK IS OVER

Yes,midterm week has offcially ended this afternoon.But,I' worried about my Filipino test.huhu
Why did I changed my answer?Stupid me!
The moral lesson?Trust your first instincts.

But overall,I'm relieved. =)
No classes tomorrow and I'll be going out with my friends.I need to give myself a reward for studying for one whole week.LOL

I actually don't have extraordinary to blog about so I'll end it here.Bye. ;)

2007-01-16T20:42:00.000-08:00

THE BABY IS NOW A LADY

I just turned 18 last January 14.The celebration was held last saturday,January 13 at Stonehouse Place.
It was indeed a lovely and memorable night for me as I entered womanhood. :)

I didn't expect the number of visitors that night.Were only expecting about a 100 but it exceeded into 40.I was indeed blessed to have a great number of people who loves me so much and that I was able to celebrate it like I've always dreamed of which proves how fortunate I am to experience that kind of birthday.

As I enter the threshold of womanhood, I don't know what to expect or whether I'll expect anything.
Being 18 is such a big deal for me because I am more loaded with responsiblities and pressure from those people around me,including my parents.

I can't even believe that I just turned eighteen!
It's just like yesterday that I was playing hide and seek with my cousins only wearing undies and a shirt.LOL
Time really flies so fast and I didn't even noticed it.

The little girl who used to sit on his father's lap and ask her mom for a pasalubong is now grown up.
As what my tita said in her speech in my 18 candles " The baby is now a lady ". But I'm still the same old Dana whom you used to know.I'm still the girl or (should I say lady?) who sometimes messes up things around her.
I'm still the little princess of my daddy and will always be the baby of my mommy. :)

2007-01-10T20:42:00.000-08:00

YOUTH VOTERS?

This past few days news about the upcoming National Elections are everywhere,may it be on the television,radio or newspapers.
Aspiring candidates for all kinds of positions both in local and national are starting to think about their strategies for them to win.

But did it ever crossed our mind that we,the youth have a great role in the upcoming May elections?
or did it ever occur to us that our generation are the one who'll have a great benefit in the future?

It crossed my mind this afternoon when we had a talk about the said matter.
Almost half of the voters will be the youth as what our guest speaker had said.

I myself had already been registered to vote for the National Elections since I'll be turning 18 before the election and I do believe that we,the youth really have a great role in installing the next government officials which will hopefully lead our country to a better situation.

What the candidates should possess is not a 'good personality' but a platform which is for us because as I've said,were the ones who'll benefit from it.As a voter,we should really think whom we should put in the position/s because our future depends here.

And that is my assignment for myself,I should look for those who deserves to be in position.
Those who'll make our living a much comfortable one. :)

2007-01-01T21:40:00.000-08:00

Welcome 2007

Happy New year everyone.Hope you enjoyed your new year celebration with your family as much as I did.

Have a blessed year ahead.

2006-12-24T18:34:00.000-08:00

Do I still have a wish?

As I look back on year 2006,I've felt that this year has not been so good to me.
I have gone through emotional shits in my life.

There was a trouble between me and some of my so-called friends.
They pushed me to the limit to act that way.I've lost my patience and my not-so-kind image evolved.
But I found out that I can be strong,I can fight for what I know is right.

Dana used to be the girl that is being trampled upon, knowing that she won't fight back because she's oftenly seen in a corner,crying or putting her thoughts in her daily diary.They didn't thought that she could fight back too and stand firm in her decision.Yes,I already know how to fight for myself. =)

My heart was broken and I was left hanging all by myself.The boy whom i trusted with all of my heart dumped me for another one who couldn't even prove her worth.Yes,I'm being bitter because I know that I shouldn't be treated that way.I deserve to be treated like a princess because that's what my dad says and I believe him.
Still,I've gone through it all and despite the gossips,rumors or whatever you want to call it,I'm standing tall.

I had already forgiven those who caused me so much pain and suffering yet,I won't never forget those because those incidents made me stronger and improved.

So,my wish?aside from material things (yes,I still ask for material things,who doesn't?) is a peaceful mind because I've been thinking about much lately.A healthier me and my family.Boyfriend?naah,I don't need a boyfriend,yes,I do miss those time of having someone but I'm contented on what I have.
I have my mom and dad,family and friends,a comfortable living..I need to wish nothing more. :)

Oh,happiness for the coming year for me and my family.That would be enough. =)

Merry Christmas everyone.

2006-12-23T21:41:00.000-08:00

CHRISTMAS GALORE

O yes,tomorrow will already be noche buena and gift giving,can't wait. :)
I wonder what mom gave me?daddy has given me my new moto l6 phone beforehand so I'm not expecting anything anymore.

But I'm sooo broke.I spent around 3 thou for my Christmas shopping for just 2 days.Ang gastos ko talaga!
Had fun anyways with my bestfriends.:))

Happy Birthday Nicko. :D

2006-12-19T17:31:00.000-08:00

MAGULO

"Hindi dapat ako mahulog sa'yo kasi alam ko,mahal ko pa s'ya.Ayaw na kita makita baka kasi masanay ako.
Alam mo namang mahina pa 'ko,pinagsasamantalahan mo naman.Huwag mo na 'ko puntahan pwede?
May girlfriend ka diba?dapat seryosohin mo s'ya kasi niloloko mo lang s'ya.Naglolokohan lang tayo.
Ikaw na rin nagsabi na walang seryosohan pero 'lam mo naman na kelangan ko ng isang tulad mo ngayon kaso hindi pwede kasi kanya ka na,baka seryosohin kita,kawawa naman ako.Kalimutan na lang natin ang mga nangyari ha?S'ya kasi dapat nilalambing at kayakap mo,hindi dapat ako." :(

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"Ikaw dapat ang kasama ko,hindi dapat s'ya.Sorry naman,naging mahina na naman ako.Ikaw dapat ang naglalambing at nag-aalaga sa'kin,hindi dapat s'ya.Ano ba yan,para naman akong baliw.
Yakap at halik mo sana ang naramdaman ko hindi kanya.Pasensya na talaga,naging mahina ako.
Dapat ba pumayag ako na balikan kita para walang ganito?Paramdam ka naman.'di ko na alam gagawin ko." :'(

2006-12-14T20:32:00.000-08:00

I CAN FINALLY BREATHE

Yes,I can finally smell the fresh air of freedom.Prelims are over and our christmas break has officially started.
No more waking up early and meeting my not-so-likeable professors.:)

I'll just think about my prelim grades after Christmas.I'm going to enjoy my christmas vacation.Yuhoooo!
But,I'll still be busy for the preparation of my 18th birthday,haha.Basta,no more classes for at least 3 weeks.
Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh. =)

2006-12-03T20:18:00.000-08:00

DAMAGED

Probably many of us knew or all of us knew about what happened last week.
Reming came and caused so much damaged on those affected cities.Properties,agricultural products and especially lives. :(

And about what happened to Bicol?Haii,I'm so sad to hear see the news.Many families lost their properties and businesses and loss their loved ones too. =(

I hate Reming for causing so much damage.Now Christmas is coming,how will Bicolanos,especially those who are affected will celebrate their Christmas?Spending it without your loved ones is really depressing.

Let's just hope and pray that they would overcome this trial that God has given them.I know they'll get through.

2006-11-25T18:26:00.000-08:00

No Mom for weekend

My mom is currently in Antipolo attending a seminar which is required for her work,so obviously she's not home and my dad is in Megamall right at this very moment watching some err,gunshow.
I swear,he loves gun so much,for hunting or safety purposes basta gun,he's always on the go.

I only had one class today because my subject profs for this day is also on seminar in Baguio.Wooossh,I wanna go back there,I miss that kulangot thingie.LOL

So much for this,i really have nothing interesting or extraordinary to blog about.

Ciao!

2006-11-14T20:45:00.000-08:00

BESTFRIENDS

Today,we didn't have our 1:30-3:00 class because almost all of our classmates attended the afternoon recollection since their respective sections last sem didn't get the chance to attend the October 2 recollection.

I don't feel like going home yet so I sent Angelo a text message asking him if he's free since I haven't seen him for 2 months already.I was supposed to invite Hannah but I know that she's home by then because she only have a half day class.So,Angelo and I agreed to meet up in front of our school and then we had our merienda at Taco Bell.I soooo,doooppeer missed him.He's like my brother because I don't have any sibling.

We stayed there for 2 hours,we killed our time by telling stories and updating each other on what's happening in our respective lives.I had fun with him (he's the boyfriend of besh Hannah by the way).
Of course,his day won't be over without teasing me.I missed it though.LOL =p

We'll again meet up on Friday with of course,Hannah to go to Donnie's birthday.Can't wait to be with them again.I missed those lovebirds.

Bestfriends are definitely one of the greatest gifts from God.I'm truly blessed to have someone like him and of course my ever pretty beshie,Hannah.I love then both.

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Off-topic.I was elected as Business Manager of our class.Nico was such a nice guy.He trusts me so much.
I hope my blockmates will cooperate with us,class officers.And oh,Shermaine is our class president. =)

2006-11-08T20:28:00.000-08:00

GOODBYE :(

My friend will be leaving for States this 10 in the evening. He already told it a few months back.
But I didn't see it coming,geez..time flies by soooo fast and I haven't even noticed it.

He's the brother of my cousin's boyfriend and a friend of my ex boyfriend,actually it was through my ex that I came to know him.We became constant textmates and would talk over the phone (that's the good thing about Sun) until the wee hours of the morning,he even became one of the reasons of my ex boyfriend's jealousy.
Even after my ex and I broke up,we still had constant communication.I told him eveything about what I feel about our breakup (my ex and I).He's been there with me all through the way.

He's like an older brother to me.He drinks a lot and I would argue with him about that.
He's my shock absorber. But he once avoided me because he said he was already falling for me. *off topic*
Anyways,he's the one of the few who knows almost everything about me.
He accepts me for who I am. :)

Actually,I haven't seen him in person yet (although he has seen me) because he's residing in Batangas, eventhough we have a house at Batangas, I rarely go out whenever I'm there.But I believe that the eyes cannot measure the friendship you have with someone. I feel his genuine concern towards me and I am very thankful to God for that.

He called me in my cellphone before entering the departure area.We talked for about 20 minutes.
I can't help but cry although he don't want to hear me sobbing, I can't hide it in my voice.He's crying too.
Gawd,I'll miss him so damn much.I'll miss our long conversation over the cellphone,our texting marathon even until the wee hours,his pang-aasar and everything we shared for the past 7 months.
Eventhough in that short span of time of knowing him, he's really one of whom I have a genuine friendship and that won't change.I hope someday we would cross paths again (after 10 years?) then we would just sit down and talk about anything under the sun (and see him face to face) just like what we always do everyday through SMS.I hope he'll find the right girl for him and I'd surely be happy. :)

"Ghok,'lam ko di mo mababasa 'to kasi hindi ka mahilig mag-internet pero I just want you to know na I'm really very thankful for having someone like you as my friend.Salamat sa lahat ng tulong mo sa'min ni Kevin kahit hindi kami nag-work out,naappreciate ko every little thing you did for me and for us before.
Thank You sa pagtatanggol mo sa'kin sa kanya kahit na sobrang close kayo, ang bait mo talaga sa'kin.
Sa mga pagbubulyaw mo sa'kin tuwing umiiyak ako,sa mga simpleng text messages na nagpapaalala na kumain na 'ko at mag-diet at the same time.Sa pagiging sobrang honest mo sa'kin tungkol sa nararamdaman mo, kahit na hindi ko nasuklian yun 'lam mo naman na isa ka sa mga masasabi kong totoong kaibigan.No words can express how grateful I am to you.You've been so nice,sweet and caring to me.Ma-mimiss kita ng sobra.Pakabait ka dun at wag kang pasaway ha?.Love you. "

Haiiii..where's the good in goodbye? :(

2006-10-30T17:25:00.000-08:00

I HATE HER!AYOKO SA KANYA!

Yes,I do.She's a fake.She doesn't even treat us as her relative,pakitang-tao lang pala.
I hate people who pretends to be nice even if they really are not.Why does she have to pretend?For what?
para s'ya ang kaawaan? Ang PLASTIC niya!

She started to be insecure when my mom deided to repair our dirty kitchen.Yes,we do understand that the only time she can sleep is during mornings wherein the carpenter is fixing our kitchen.Kasalanan ba ng carpenter na maingay pag nagpupukpok ng martilyo at kasalanan din ba namin na night shift s'ya?

And grrrr...why does she have to tell her mom that she is not being treated nicely by my mom and Tita Daisy which is her mom's siblings.Tinahi na n'ya ang istorya,I really hate her,considering that she's my first cousin.

Does she know what she's doing?And does she have to tell my younger cousins that "ang ingay-ingay n'yo,akala n'yo kung sino kayo e nakikitira lang naman kayo dito"...the nerve!
And now,she told her older sister to but the apartment (which is co-owned by his father and tita) were living in which is in the first place, her dad is the one who advised my mom to buy this lot since they are our relatives.Staright from the horse's mouth.Ngayon pa kung kelan ayos na ang documents at ang owner ng lot na kinatatayuan ng apartment na 'to ay si Tita Alice na kung ituring nilang magkapatid ay hindi rin kamag-anak!

This issue has been here for almost 2 months.I'm just keeping quiet because I don't want to meddle with their problem but I SWEAR!if she keeps on doing that and seeing my mom crying just really hurts me,I would don't even damn care if she is my cousin or she is older that me.

That's why she is not being blessed by a child because of her yucky attitude!

FAKER,TALKSHIT AND BACKSTABBER would spell her!

Wala palang pansinan ha,yun pala gusto mo,kung bastos ka mas bastos ako,kung gago ka mas gago ako at kung maldta ka MAS MALDITA AKO!

2006-10-24T08:31:00.000-07:00

SICKNESS PART TWO

After ranting about my cousin's hospitalization last sunday,I didn't see things coming.

About 11 in the evening,I suddenly felt abdominal pain,I thought I just have that normal attack of my ulcer so I just took my medicine and went to sleep.
But about 3 in the morning,I felt my stomach crumbling and I knew I have to poo.

I went back and forth in the CR for about 16 times and yes,it wasn't normal.
So my dad and mom decided to rush me to the hospital.
After my doctor checked on me,she adviced my parents to admit me in the hospital because I was soooooo dehydrated (who wouldn't be?)

Waahh,I hate being confined,I hate having an IV in my hand so for me not having to move freely and normally.

Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..

2006-10-22T20:25:00.000-07:00

SICKNESS

I just came home from Batangas.I thought,I'll be able to see Karlo,my cousin,in our home province since a week ago he told me he'll be waiting for me but I was shocked by the news that he was in the hospital.

He was never a sickly boy,yeah he gets sick once in a while but it never came to a pont that he would be confined, this was his first time.

Upon arriving home and after changing clothes,mom,dad and I went immidiately at Taal Polymedic Hospital to visit 2toy(that's how we call him).The doctor told his mom that the cause of his vomiting and abdominal pain was amoebasis (tama ba spelling?). I remembered having that too when I was younger.It's because of the drinking water all over our town.

The water company in our district changed the water pipes without informing the residents that the water might be affected.Damn!
They didn't even thought that many will get sick because of their stupid act.
Almost one member in the family in each house in our neighborhood was in the hospital because of that f*cking water.Grrr.

Good thing,my cousin will be out of the hospital by tomorrow morning.I wish he'll have a speed recovery. :))

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Off topic..I'll be enrolling tomorrow.I hope I'll have the same schedule like in my first sem.
With my classcards?I dunno what mark I'll be getting in my Chem.I'm quite sure that I'll be taking it as a summer.Oh well,almost 50% of Section 17-32 are failing.

Oh,I have my new layout.It features some of the lyrics from No One Else Comes Close,All my life and Without You, few of my favorite songs of all times.
I hope you'll like it as much as I do. :)

2006-10-18T17:11:00.000-07:00

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Wala akong maisip na title ng post ko,gusto ko lang ilabas lahat ng nararamdaman ako.
Warning to those who hate reading mushy-slash-hate post.

Oh well,eto na naman.May nanggugulo na naman ng buhay ko.Bakit ba kung kelan tahimik na 'ko tyaka naman may gumugulo?Ano ba talaga gusto niyo?Hindi ba lumayo na 'ko para lang maging masaya kayo at maging tahimik at masaya na rin ako.

Bakit ba hindi niyo na lang pakealaman mga buhay niyo?Kelangan bang pati ako na nananahimik dito at pinagpapatuloy ang buhay ay pestihin pa?Matanong ko nga,may ginawa ba akong masama para bwisitin niyo ko?At pag tinamaan ka naman ng lintik,ngayon pang araw na 'to kung kelan maganda ang umpisa.Syet naman!

Ang mga tao nga naman,walang magawa sa buhay.Hindi mo nga alam kung talagang may galit sa'yo o pinagtritripan ka lang o 'di kaya naiinggit sa'yo.Pwede ba,tigilan n'yo nga ako sa mga kalechehan niyo. Problema n'yo 'yan pati ako dinadamay n'yo.At hello?Nasa Manila ako kaya ano ba pakealam ko sa mga nangyayari sa inyo d'yan sa Batangas.

Kasi naman Kevin, kung makikipagbalikan ka sa 'ex' mo, siguraduhin mo na wala kang iniwan na umaasa, kaya pati yung binabalikan mo napepeste ang buhay.Malas mo lang at hindi na 'ko pumayag na magpagago sa'yo.Kung gago ka, mas gago/a ako kaya hindi ko na kelangan ng martilyo na ipupukpok sa ulo 'ko.At pwede ba,pakipag-sabihan lang mga babae mo na 'wag ako ang pestehin at tawagan na sasabihin na tigilan na kita kasi in the first place, I dumped you right?Ngayon kung hindi mo tanggap yun,malas mo lang,kung hindi mo ba naman kasi ako niloko sa loob ng isa't kalahating taon e di sana,tahimik buhay mo pati na rin buhay ko.

Alam mo ba,simula ng kumabit ang pangalan ko sa pangalan mo, hindi na natahimik cellphone ko sa kaka-ring dahil sa mga tumatawag sa'kin na mga babae mo.Hay naku,non-sense na mga isinusulat ko dito,non-sense ka din kasing tao.

Kelan kaya darating karma sa'yo?Matututo ka pa kaya?O magbabago?Haha,I pray na sana hindi ganun kalakas dating ng karma sa'yo kasi kung hindi,kawawa ka naman.
Kaya pwede,please lang,tigilan mo na mga kagaguhan mo para tumahimik na rin ang buhay ko na dati ng tahimik na ginulo mo lang,bago ko pa makalimutan na minahal kita at kinakapatid kita!

Nga pala,para sa mga 'girlfriend/s' n'ya,ingat kayo,masayadong matamis dila n'yan,baka pati kayo magaya sa'kin. :)

HELLO SEMBREAK

2006-10-15T20:31:00.000-07:00

HELLO SEMBREAK

Yeah,first sem has officially ended last friday,October 13, 2006.
Had our Algebra and English finals that day and let our profs sign our permit which is needed for the enrollment. I have decided to pursue my Nursing course though, why?
Because I don't want to be an irregular student next sem.
I'll still be shifting my course but on my second year, I'll take the pre-requisite subjects on my summer for me not to be an irreg next school year. (gulo ng isip ko noh?)

Anyways,me and my girls bonded at Gateway after the finals.
We watched Pulse after having lunch at Burgoo. The movie was good but the ending wasn't nice, you should watch it for you to find out why.
Of course, our bonding wouldn't be complete without the camwhoring moments, the pictures are in my multiply.

I'll miss my girls, my blockmates and my 700php allowance every week.LOL :D

2006-10-03T21:14:00.000-07:00

I hate how coffee turns into an addiction and how it keeps you up all night.
How it burns and makes your heart beat fast, especially how it makes you crave for its rich,sweet promises of grains, milk and sugar.

Moments later, it puts you into a melancholic mood of coldness, before you realize that it has consumed you before you should have consumed it.
EMPTY.HOLLOW.BITTER.

Then again you crave for another cup.
Just like love.

But then again, Im not craving for more, although I want my mocha frappe. :))

2006-09-26T21:21:00.000-07:00

As I was browsing through the last pages of my diary the night before, I realized that all I have written this past 3 months was about my past relationship,on how he had caused me so much pain etcetera.

Now, I have learned to cope up, I have swallowed my loneliness like a bitter ill.
Maybe fate could not extend it's gift that is bestowed on us any further.
It's just that the coffee is so warm and I am so cold.

But something unexpected happened.
As I was focusing myself in front of my computer last night, someone miscalled me.
"2 missed calls" , yet I don't know who owns that number.
And to my surprise, the one who owns that number is no one but HIM.

He wants to win back, but I turned him down because I think I had enough.
I'm moving on, I learned to stand on my own without him beside me.
And I am happy on what I have right now eventhough I had no one to call "baby" or "boyfriend" but I have many friends and my attention is not anymore confined to only one but to all of those who are dear to me.

I'll just wait for the day when fate will smile to me again.I'll just wait for my prince charming then. :)

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I have lost the files I have downloaded recently and I didn't even know why.
I haven't deleted it anyways arrrgghh.I have to download all the songs I have downloaded all over again.Thank god I still have the list.I'm so careless!!!

2006-09-20T22:10:00.000-07:00

I don't know if someone or if there's somebody that visits my blog.I really don't care.As long as I open up my emotions or anything that happens in my life eventhough it's senseless.

There are some things that are not known to people about me.I want to share them anyways. :)
It's a sort of bibliography. (whatever!)

1.My mom said that after giving birth, I was confined in the hospital for a week because I have eaten a poopoo inside her.Takaw ko na baby pa lang,haha.

2.I'm an only child but I always wanted to have a kuya.

3.I'm anemic.LOL.My normal blood pressure is 80/90.(normal na yun)

4.I still love to play bahay-bahayan with my little cousins. :D

5.I don't know how to cook.

6.I'm afraid of crossing streets.

7.I also got ulcer.

8.I'm in the hospital for almost every year.

9.I've been in the top 10 consistently when I was in grade school. (not until I reached highschool.haha)

10.I'm a crybaby eversince I was a kid.

2006-09-19T21:40:00.000-07:00

RANDOM

I've been failing my major this past 2 weeks,grr.I swear,I have never experienced getting low grades even those who involved computations.Yes,I'm not good in computations and all that but I never get failing grades.It depresses me so eventhough it won't be credited when I shift to another course next sem because it doesn't involve Chemistry. :'s

Haay,enough of that.It depresses me more.

This week is our University week.We had no classes yesterday but the presence of the students are needed that's why I was absent.:)
And besides, I went at St.Luke's for my CBC test,I'll be having the results on friday.
I wonder why they have to do that test on me eh I'm anemic na nga. :?

Our Socio prof wasn't able to meet us today because he has something to do so I was able to meet up with my boy friend.He's a childhood friend.
We met at Gateway and he treated me at Starbucks,mocchafrappe is love. :))
And then we just strolled around.I miss bonding with him.
He dropped me off here at my place at around 6pm.

Got no classes tomorrow and on Thursday because all of my subject profs for that day won't be around, I don't know why.

And I was able to see Joshua of Freestyle in flesh because their band performed in our school.
Wee,he's so cute.Sayang, I wasn't able to take pictures of them while performing because I so much enjoyed their performance.

" I'm half crazy..feeling sorry for myself "

I'm crazy about Joshua of Freestyle.Haha :D

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2006-09-08T22:11:00.000-07:00

wala akong maisip na title ng post ko kaya obviously untitled sya.
dami kasi nangyari sa'kin ngayong Friday, uhmm,di sya ganun kadami but still meron. :)

nag-quiz kami kanina sa Chemistry, good luck sa'kin. Lumabas naman yung mga pinag-aralan ko di ko lang alam if tama mga sagot ko,hahaha.napaka-careless ko kasi eh. :s
nasayang pa nga yung lab gown na dala ko eh, akala kasi namin magpeperform kami ng lab hindi naman pala.tsktsk..wala na kaming class ng 1:30 kasi may program, search for Mr. and Ms. AHSE, hindi nga ako nanood kasi naman wala na kaming maupuan ng mga kaibigan ko. Inubos namin ang 1:30-3:00 namin para magpractice ng cheering dance namin para sa PE sa Monday. Kamusta naman diba?Choir member ako hindi ako cheerdancer eventhough dancing is one of my frustrations in life.Haha.

Pero in fairness, may nagawa akong mabuti ngayon. Kasi ganito yun, may nagapproach samin na group of students from higher batch, nung una nga dineadma ko pa kasi may issue nga ng Hypnotism within the school vicinity wherein ang mga suspect eh nakasuot ng school uniform ng TUA pero they're not really students of the university. So ayun nga, si Rachelle lang kumausap sa kanya pero wala naman nangyari kay Chelle, di naman sya nahypnotize kaya tinignan ko na rin sila. ;p

Humingi sila ng tulong para sa classmate nila na nagkaroon ng dengue, kasi daw every 5 hours nagpapa-CBC yung classmate nila, naawa naman ako kasi alam ko ang pakiramdam ng magpa-CBC kasi anemic ako, masakit yun ah. Kaya ayun, 20 pesos nabigay ko kasi wala na akong pera eh, pero at least nakatulong ako diba, nasa kanila na yun kung totoo yung sinasabi nila at least nakagawa ako ng mabuti lalo na ngayong birthday ni Mama Mary. :)

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2006-09-06T20:32:00.000-07:00

New things.Yeah,first off,I had my layout changed.Its noy pretty I know,just bear with it muna. Anyways,Semi-Finals is fast approaching.It'll be next week na,woosshh,I need high grades for next sem coz I'll be shifting my course na,I won't mention muna what course I'm going to take,surprise muna. =)

I didn't get the chance to go to the practice for our cheerdance,it's for our PE subject.
Kasi naman eh,our PE is about gymnastics ewan ko nga kung may connection eh. ;p
I got loads of work,it's a hell month for me,grrr.Good thing is that we only have half-day classes on Friday because were required to watch the Mr.&Ms. AHSE at 1:30 in the afternoon.
Our representative will be Melo and Krisel.

I have many stories to tell but tinatamad ako eh.So i'll just post next time.

Good night! =)

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2006-08-29T21:48:00.000-07:00

My hands are numb while from the coldness while typing this non sense post.
Shivering thoughts came rumbling in my head.
Where am I? I asked a question everyone else could answer except me.
Time is ticking slowly while my butt's sinking against my body.

As I watch the rain flowing at the other side of the window, I suddenly thought of you.
How I wanted to share this kind of mixed emotions with you.
I am getting nearer and nearer to where I was supposed to be going.

I rushed outside but the street are awfully quiet which is not normal.
But still you're on my mind. I gave out a big sigh, thinking you're here.

I went back into the front of my reliable computer where I dwell my feelings about anything, especially about you. I closed my eyes and laugh about myself, on how the coldness makes me look like and angel but without wings.

I again remebered those sweet words you have told me. Those sweet words are so captivating that I have easily felt the sincerity but kept me confused that time. I thought that would be something, something that would last for eternity.

But I guess I was wrong, definitely so wrong. Suddenly I felt the feeling of irony is starting to swallow all of me. It excruciates me. Everything I've held on for so long suddenly vanish through the thin air. I can't seem to find the answers, I just can't seem to find it. I can't find YOU.

ETCETERA

2006-08-19T21:25:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the last day of our midterms examinations and as expected, Matk killed me (literally).
English exam was easy except for that CSC thing, it means Central Student Council but I wrote College Student Council instead,stupid me! But overall, it went good, what should I expect? I love English eventhough I'm not that good in speaking or writing in English.

After class, me and my new friends decided to stroll around Gateway to chill after that hell week and grab something to eat. Chilled at Starbucks after, Mocha Frappe is love. ü

I left them at 1:30 since I still have to meet someone, she's a girl and who is she?
Abby. She was the girl who I mentioned in my previous blog, she's my 'old bestfriend'.

We met in Gateway then took a cab ride to Imma to visit our old teachers and since I need to give something to Miggy for their upcoming retreat on Monday. It felt weird being with her after not going out with her for almost a year because we parted ways during our last conversation last March of 2005 because there was an issue but that was a looonng time ago.

I felt nostalgic being with her, thinking of the old stuffs we used to do together but nothing changed during that span of a year of not being together. We discovered that we still have the same tastes is music, clothes and boys. LOL

The only thing that changed is that she's not my best friend anymore, Hannah is already my best girlfriend but she'll always be the girl who knows more about me more that I know myself. I felt relieved after yesterday.

BUT.. Hannah will always be my besh'bie. No one could take her place, SWEAR! :))

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My both leg are aching. huhuhu
Why? I was walking for hours yesterday. After exams--lakwatsa and just as I thought I'll going to have my rest after 5pm, hindi pala. My dad had 3 tickets for Vina Morales' concert and it was a patron ticket so without any resentment I said YES to my mom upon showing me the ticket daddy gave her.

I didn't regret accepting the offer though because the show was good. She was an ulimate showgirl.
There was even a part of the show wherein she sang ' Halik ' by Aegis sa nakatayong bed doing that Kama Sutra thing with her dancer. The crowd kept on shouting. Of course I didn't closed my eyes because I think I was mature enough to see those kind of acts. Some of the guests was her sister, Shaina who danced with the tune of Sway by PCD, she dances oh so gracefully. Aiai Delas Alas, Jay-R and Ogie Alcasid were also part of the show. Rating? 9/10

But upon arriving home, I felt my legs aching again. :((

ANG TANGA KO TALAGA!

2006-08-17T20:09:00.000-07:00

Yeah,I'm so careless.I've accidentally deleted my first blogger acoount which contained my old posts that have been there for 2 years,grrr.
I have to start all over again. :(

The posts there mean so much to me,it's not only a blog post but it has a sentimental value,oh well,let's just hope that won't happen again here,that I won't be that careless again. :p
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I need a break! Nursing's stresses me so badly and I'm not happy about it.
Sabagay,kelan nga ba naman ako naging masaya sa course ko noh?(stupid Dana)
I swear,midterms exams killed me,literally,especially Chem101.
Tomorrow will be the last day,2 more subjects and I can finally breathe,whoo.
Math?please be good enough to me,I need you for me to shift my course :s (desidido na ko)
I've never been a good student when it comes to Math,I hate numbers or any subject to that matter that contains computations in it except for those basic but Algebbra,Physics,Chem?Grrr,I hate those people who formulized such theory,concepts,etcera.

Waaaahh,I need my social life back,good thing there'll be no classes on Monday and on Sunday we'll be celebrating our grandma's 84th birthday,it'll be held on Blue Sky Hotel near our house.
I'll post pics soon. =)

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My layout is still the same one from my previous blog,I have no time to make a new layout.
I'll make one as soon as I'm finished with my school works. =p