There are so many issues around me that I just can't take for granted.I knowI shouldn't post this because it's kinda personal but I can't help but to blab it here.This is the only way I know how and I know where I can pour my emotions,thoughts or even just sharing how my day went.

Suddenly,everything went blank.I don't know how to face my cousin who's having a dillemma right now.I don't want to be plastic,pretending that I do not know what's happening with her.
I want to hug her and comfort her but I don't know how because I told my mom that I won't spill anything to them or to her for that matter, without them telling it to me directly.
You see,I can't really tell it her that direct because it's a family issue but I did not expect that this issue or this dillemma would happen within our family.I often joke around,telling my friends back home in Batangas that it would never happen.

It really saddens me,I'm away from them,from her.I'm here in Manila and they're in Batangas.
I know their having a hard time dealing with it and treating each other this time around. :(
I'm really close to my cousins on my father side since I do not have a sister or brother,they're the ones I grew up with,kasing-edad ika nga (not literally).

Bek is one of my favorite cousins in the whole universe (her nickname btw) and I really didn't see these things coming her way,their way,our way.My dad and tito don't know anything about this,even my lola (dad's mom) and the rest of our relatives in my dad's side.Only me and my mom aside from my cousin's mom and siblings, knows about this issue.

I do not know on how everyone would react and will accept when they'll finally know about this.
I look up to her,we have high hopes for her.But whatever happens,I'll be just here,a shoulder to cry on or just by being a cousin and a friend,I'll always be Bek's sweetie. :)

And I know,GOD would not leave her in pain and will be there and will always be there for her.

Labels: family

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It's already May and on the 7th,I'll be in front of Mrs.Maglaque,listening to her discussion,sitting my ass in my arm chair while my cousins,on father side,are having fun because of our town fiesta.That's what I hate on having summer classes,not being able to attend family gatherings because I have to, of course, prioritize my studies.But I'm really disappointed because I'm the only one who can't go in our town fiesta,I'll be missing the street party and the foooooooodddddsss. *sighs*

And since,one week left then it'll be our finals, I have to work really hard to earn that grade I've been aiming.Hell week is fast approaching. =/

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I didn't attend my 4-6 class this afternoon due to my monthly period.
As usual,I again experienced dysmennhoria and I felt stressed out eh?
Whatever.I really do need a break,good thing Hannah will treat me tomorrow :)
Were going to have another bestfriend bonding.

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I had my layout changed,although it's not as nice as others but it reflects my personality :)

Labels: family, friends, school, stress

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