LETTING GO


Things right now are quite different.I've finally decided to end all the connections I have with this person--well,not totally.You see,I've been so attached to this person for this past few months, considering the fact that I've just known him back in summer.I missed being with him every week,hearing mass every Sundays,late night phone calls,exchanging text messages until the wee hours of the morning but I had to end things sooner before anything else begins.I just wish I could go back to the way we once were.But I had to let go,he was not mine in the first place,I need to give him up although the pain kills me because I know this is the best way for the both of us.I need to grow all by myself--without him.

My personal life really needs an overhaul.Studies are FRUSTRATING.I've never gotten this grades in my enter life.I felt that I've been thrown into a pool full of ice.I was in shock upon receiving my Humanities test paper.Wtf?!I need my minors to pull up my grade so I can maintain the 2.00 GPA needed to be able to step into third year, for me to be able to wear the blue and white milkmaid uniform.My dreams are now being torn into pieces--bit by bit.But I'm letting go of that frustration.I still have semi-finals and finals although it's too short.I need to believe in myself.What's the use of being in the qualifiers for honors during my secondary years if I will not use it diba?

Sometimes, letting go is the best option.

Labels: lovelife, school, stress

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FOR NURSING STUDENTS AND NURSES


I was hungry and i could not feed myself
you left my food tray out of my reach
on my bedside table
then discussed my nutritional needs during nursing conference

i was thirsty and helpless but you forget
to ask the attendant to refill my pitcher
you later charted that i refused fluids

i was lonely and afraid but you left me alone
because i was not cooperative and never ask for anything
i was in a financial difficulties and
in your mind i become an object of annoyance

i was a nursing problem and you discussed
the theoretical basis of my illness in which you dont see me
i was though to be dying and thinking i couldn't hear
you hope i wouldn't die before it was time to finish your day
because you had an appointment at the parlor before you evening date.

you seem so well educated, well spoken and very neat
in your wrinkle free and spotless uniform
but when i speak,
you seem to listenbut you dont hear me

help me care about what happen to mei'am so tired, so lonely and very afraidtalk to me, reach to me, take my handlet what happens to me matters to you.. PLEASE NURSE..

* I got this from Charm's site, I was touched so I decided to post it here.

Labels: thoughts

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Due to the suspension of classes and boredom,I put the dvd of my 18th birthday in the dvd player and watched it over again.And so while I'm watching the video,it made me go back to that very night wherein I am overwhelmed with the number of people who came.

But I haven't notice that it has been 7 month since I turned 18.I felt that I've haven't outgrown being 17--yet.I feel that January just passed by but I'm still stucked into 2006 mode.
It made me realize that I still need some maturity and lessen my being a 'brat'.

I used to complain about the things that doesn't go my way,but I'm learning to accept the realities of life.Yes,I'm becoming much mature now.Contradicting isn't it?but some things are really contradictory in life.Life is never been made to be simple,we should be appreciative of it though.

Being 18 really teaches you many things.You should be responsible enough to take care of yourself and all the things that is happening around you and the way you decide for yourself.


Err,am I talking non-sense here?Or am I becoming self absorbed?Just bear with me.

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Brr,No classes again tomorrow--All levels!

Labels: thoughts

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