At last,I have a new layout.Haha.I just find cupcakes cute although I don't eat them.I just love looking at them because of their colors.

Anyways,I haven't been attending the required summer classes for nursing students since I'm not yet enrolled.Crap!But I'll be enrolling na next week since the start of the summer classes of my future school will be starting on Monday and their allowing transferees to enroll late.Hahahaha.

Actually,I'm having second thoughts regarding my course, on whether I'll pursue it or not but I think I will since sayang naman ang 2 taon na pinaghirapan ko.Hopefully 2 years more then goodbye college.Oh,I'll still be taking the Local Board Exams since I don't have plans yet of getting employed abroad maybe it'll take time to convince me to work on foreign land as a nurse.

I told myself that if ever I get to finish nursing I won't get myself a job in another country eventhough it means that getting a lower pay.Of course I want to provide for my family and get them a better living but for me, I can give them that without me living the Philippines.Haha.I'm being Nationalistic.

I'm not against those who take Nursing as a ticket to settle their foot on foreign land because I know how hard it is to earn money here in our country.Its just that, it isn't my thing yet.
Who knows diba?I may eat up my word but not for now.

Err.I think I should end this stuff.,it's nonsense.I know. :P
Goodnight everyone.

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It has been what, 4 months since I last updated this blog.LOL.
Many things had happened,good and bad.Btw,I wanted to make a new layout but I don't know how to upload it here in blogger because the settings have changed,can someone teach me how?please?

Anyways,I haven't been qualified to attend my third year in college at Trinity because of certain circumstances like my GPA which didn't reach the required quota.

Although I didn't made it to St.Luke's College of Nursing, I know that God wants what's best for me.He knows I tried every possible way to get in. I am BITTER, yes, because not only I'll be leaving my school for the first half year of college life but those lucky people who get through and have been my friends for 2 years.But not passing doesn't make me or some of my friends who didn't get lucky a failure, it just shows that not everything we wanted will be given to us. Gasgas man ang line na 'to pero totoo " THERE'S ALWAYS A REASON FOR EVERYTHING ". I may not made it but I'm keeping the FAITH and for me that's all that matter.
For those who passed the screening, I salute you guys, your works paid off, you'll be wearing that BLUE and WHITE milkmaid uniform.Keep up the good work.You deserve it, continue to make us proud.

And to those who didn't get in--like me, don't be sad.It's not yet the end for us, who knows we may be one of the board topnotchers, ahem!haha.Kidding aside, there's something better instore for us,God wants us to look for other options, not only in Trinity but in other Nursing schools maybe.Be sad about it for a while,then,move on.Don't let it be a hindrance in attaining what we want in life.

After all GREAT NURSES DON'T JUST COME FROM ST.LUKE'S COLLEGE OF NURSING as what my friend have told me.

Aja guys :)

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Second sem had officially started last Monday and as expected there were only orientations during the first meetings in some of our subjects and some of our profs didn't even bothered to drop by in our class,even just for the checking of attendance.

I'm in 2nu24 right now and I miss my old blockmates,those perky faces,high pitched voice that you'll hear in the 4 corners of our room.Good thing 11 of us came from 2nu27.Oh,we even thought that our class will be dissolved due to the number of the students enrolled but our MicroPara adviser told us that we won't be dissolved anymore because were almost 30 students.Sections 11 and 12 are the ones who'll be dissolved so were just waiting for those who'll be added in our section.

Btw,I was elected as Class Treasurer.I ate up my word.LOL.I told myself that I wouldn't be a Class Treasurer--ever.But it did not turn out that way.Hahaha.
There are only 5 set of class officers and 3 of those came from 2nu27 last sem.Hahaha.
We outnumbered the rest of those who came from other sections,were like one big barkada.
Gawd,it made me miss the bond of 2nu27 and I certainly miss Yna,my Kupsi,she enrolled late that's why she wasn't able to be a nu24 student. :(

This Second Sem will be a challenge for me.I need to make bawi with my grades.
Even if I can't continue my course in my present school,I'm still determined to make it until the end--until the end of the second sem.This is the only chance I get to get it through.

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Finally,I'm enrolled and just waiting for the classes to start though bitin pa ako sa sembreak but having classes means having a weekly allowance.Haha.I hate it when I have no classes because aside from the fact that I have no money during breaks, it also means having my ass glued in front of my computer or in front of the television for one freaking whole day.

And what excites me the most for the incoming 2nd sem is that I am classmates again with my 2 favorite girls--Jhonna and Liz but Yna wasn't able to enroll with us because she forgot her card which is needed for the assessment.Super haba ng pila,nakaka-pagod,muntik pa kami masaraduhan ng cashier's office,good thing they were considerate enough.

I'm ok with my schedule though I hate my PE class--swimming 8-10AM-Wednesdays.
Ayoko matosta!I don't like to be a toasted bread.Huhuhu.

MicroPara and RLE for majors---be kind enough to us,please?!

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I've been to busy lately.As in BUSY.Last week was our movie presentation for our Oral Communications finals.It went well though there had been some interruptions but it went perfectly just fine.We had our class portfolio done for our NSTP.And 1 more retdem to go then were done for our Health Care subject.

This week is our finals week.Can you please define EYEBAGS and TOXIC?Nursing course will really stress you out and yes, drive you nuts.We just took our Anatomy practicals this evening and I can say that it is quite easy than the past practical exams we had.But,uhmm,hello?can someone please tell me how to review 19 chapters of book?Grabe naman ang mga prof ng school namin,cover to cover?walang awa,walang patawad.tsktsk.

I need prayers,I really need it badly.

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And I should've been studying for Humanities final exams tomorrow.Lazy me,this isn't me.

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I'M GIVING UP

I'm loving Nursing,yes,but Anatomy is really frustrating.TUA makes it hard for the 2nd year students to get a 2 GPA to be able to step into 3rd year,especially regarding with Anatomy and Physiology subject.Darn it!Ayoko na,suko na ko.My Cerebral Cortex isn't functioning anymore.
I'm in need of that f*cking Anatomy for me to wear that Blue and White milkmaid uniform.
But,they make it hard for,US.Only 10 passed the midterm exam,70% passing rate?wtf?!

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LETTING GO


Things right now are quite different.I've finally decided to end all the connections I have with this person--well,not totally.You see,I've been so attached to this person for this past few months, considering the fact that I've just known him back in summer.I missed being with him every week,hearing mass every Sundays,late night phone calls,exchanging text messages until the wee hours of the morning but I had to end things sooner before anything else begins.I just wish I could go back to the way we once were.But I had to let go,he was not mine in the first place,I need to give him up although the pain kills me because I know this is the best way for the both of us.I need to grow all by myself--without him.

My personal life really needs an overhaul.Studies are FRUSTRATING.I've never gotten this grades in my enter life.I felt that I've been thrown into a pool full of ice.I was in shock upon receiving my Humanities test paper.Wtf?!I need my minors to pull up my grade so I can maintain the 2.00 GPA needed to be able to step into third year, for me to be able to wear the blue and white milkmaid uniform.My dreams are now being torn into pieces--bit by bit.But I'm letting go of that frustration.I still have semi-finals and finals although it's too short.I need to believe in myself.What's the use of being in the qualifiers for honors during my secondary years if I will not use it diba?

Sometimes, letting go is the best option.

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Yes,it's been a long time since I last updated my blog,well,I don't even know if someone visits my blog for any matter,but I don't care. :)

1st sem has been hectic for me.July pa lang super haggard na 'ko,what more sa mga darating pa na buwan.
Actually,you can almost dig my eyebags,well, literally and figuratively =p
I'm loving nursing na but there's a part of me that wants to hate it because I can't even find time for myself anymore.Good thing,my girlfriends are there to support me all throughout the way.I'm looking forward for our community service in our NSTP subject and Health Care RLE.It's going to be lots of fun,I'm sure.

As for my new section,all of us are getting along pretty well although there are 'groups' in the class,still we know when to be united especially now that TUA-SLCN will be trimming the 27 sections to i-don't-know-how-many in 2nd sem.I just hope I'll be able to pass their standards or if not,I'll look for other nursing school,it's my last option in case.

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It's been long since I felt this kind of feeling.Although he doesn't know that he's the one I've been blabbing and ranting all the time, it's still fine with me because I'm not complaining and I won't even dare to complain.
But as the days pass by,I've grown tired of loving someone who doesn't even have a clue on what I'm feeling.
I'm sick and tired of waiting for him to completely be over someone who doesn't even appreciates his wholeness and individuality.Yes,I'm not forcing him to completely forget about her because in the first place, he met her first before me but don't you think it's a little bit OA to love someone who pushed you away for already 2 years?Okay,I'm not complaining but I'm getting weaker and weaker each day.

He makes me smile and makes me laugh even with the little and simplest things in life.He made me see how beautiful life is, he's actually the one who encouraged me to love my course.He picked me up when I was very down and when I was at my ugliest.He's my confidante and a very loyal FRIEND.
I don't know if he feels something for me,I don't even want to know what he feels because I'm afraid I may not be able to take it the right way.My heart has been crushed many times,those whom I trusted and gave my love just threw it away and I'm afraid that it will and might happen again.I'm scared to feel lost and alone once more--friends and family is out of the context.

Yes,we see each other every week,text each other until the wee hours of the morning but am I getting what I deserve?Or I'm just seeking for more although I know in myself that it's very impossible to get it.

He makes me happy and feel secure but,yet,he makes me sad--once more. =(

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I've been depressed for about a week already and I lost weight,now that's something. :)
I can't tell my feelings towards someone because I'm SCARED,yes,I am a scaredy cat.I'm not a risk taker and I think I don't have guts to be one.

Anyhow,evernthough I'm feeling crappy I still managed to keep my faith despite of it all.I'll get through this.Sana nga.

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I'm officially enrolled.On the 13th of June,I'll be a sophomore student already.Oh yeah,I continued my course.Bait na bata ako eh.This sem will be a Jhonna-full sem.My new camwhore buddy. =)
I'll miss my old blockmates though.Abby and the rest of my girlets,how sad.

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I miss him na! :(

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It's already May and on the 7th,I'll be in front of Mrs.Maglaque,listening to her discussion,sitting my ass in my arm chair while my cousins,on father side,are having fun because of our town fiesta.That's what I hate on having summer classes,not being able to attend family gatherings because I have to, of course, prioritize my studies.But I'm really disappointed because I'm the only one who can't go in our town fiesta,I'll be missing the street party and the foooooooodddddsss. *sighs*

And since,one week left then it'll be our finals, I have to work really hard to earn that grade I've been aiming.Hell week is fast approaching. =/

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I didn't attend my 4-6 class this afternoon due to my monthly period.
As usual,I again experienced dysmennhoria and I felt stressed out eh?
Whatever.I really do need a break,good thing Hannah will treat me tomorrow :)
Were going to have another bestfriend bonding.

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[edit]
I had my layout changed,although it's not as nice as others but it reflects my personality :)

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I haven't posted for a while.I was just busy since I'm currently attending summer classes.
It was fun though, I got to meet new blockmates and got myself new friends as well.
Meeting new people has always been FUN.

Btw,I'm currently thinking of a new layout.Any suggestions?or might as well make one for me.haha :p

My bestfriend's birthday is approaching and I still have no ideas on what to give her.Rarness!

Do you think Jake Cuenca is hot?haha.I super adore him.LOL

Pardon me,I'm just bored and I thin this post is becoming self-absorbed.

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Yes,summer has officially started but my summer vacation has officially ended because by tomorrow,I'll be going back to school to attend my summer classes.Boo!
But its perfectly fine for me because summer classes means that I won't be a couch potato anymore here in our house and I have my baon pa =)

My summer vacation has been fine and now,I'm broke.haha
Good thing I have classes.But I'll miss hanging out with friends and speaking of friends,I,actually Hannah and I met new friends--TJ and Jed,the chooszy boys.LOL

Woo,I'm running out of words so I'll end it up right here :)

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I can't think any title that would fit this post,so I just decided to put etecetera.connection?nah.whatever.

Anyways,school's done and my butt is ready to go on gimmicks,yeah baby.I only barely have 3 weeks to enjoy my vacation since I'll be taking up summer classes.It sucks but I'll love it though because classes means--moolah. ü

I got 80/90 for our lab finals,my brain extraction turned out to be a mess because my froggie's brain was divided into two.I'm so careless,that's why I get a minus 10 for that matter but I had a perfect score for the eye extraction which is equal to 20. =)

But I hate Logic.Boo.I swear.I wonder what my score is?!And i don't want to think about it too much or else,I'll just get a paranoia.

I should enjoy my vacation diba?

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My yaya for 5 years already left yesterday morning.She'll be getting married on the 10th of April kasi.
Aww,I'll miss her so much.She's like my own sister that's why we consider her as part of the family.

But as the cliche' goes, when someone leaves, someone better will arrive.I just hope she'll be like Ate Ruby.

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Yeah,it's our finals week and I'm currently in front of my PC,surfing,ym-ing,teentalking and blogging.Haha

Wuhoo,Logic exams tomorrow,5 items worth 100 points,wtf!
and for that,I would love to kill Sir Guevarra.haha.
He's cute though,but he's not my type.hahaha

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Our plan to do our research has finally been confirm this morning at UP Science Lib.
At long last, me and my groupmates are finished collecting sources needed for our paper which will be equivalent for our final exam, meaning we don't have written exams anymore but..DEFENSE.

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Had our lecture and lab quiz at Zoology and I swear, I'm not sure about my answers in our lecture quiz for I haven't reviewed well because of that English paper,darn it!And I haven't answered 5 items in our lab quiz as well for I forgot the parts of the dorsal muscle of my frog.huhu. :(

I've been caught, actually me and my groupmates were caught by rain before our 1:30 class which is Zoo in T.Morato because we had our lunch at Sizzling Stop.And now,I am suffering from colds.I'm such a sickly person and I hate it.

I HATE MONDAY!This day hasn't been good to me. :(

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Tomorrow will be our defense for our Filipino paper.I would want to kill two of my groupmates ( not literally )
because they are not paying such effort to our paper.I don't even know if they understood what I have discussed them about our paper.Grrr.

SUICIDAL WEEK, here I come..again. :x ( I thought it was over )

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It was such a nice feeling being with him again last Saturday night.How I wish it would always be like this.
If only...

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I'm so stressed-out today, as in.Went at UP Lib,Science Building along with my friends-slash-groupmates to do some research for our English paper.We arrived at the Lib for outsiders at around 4:45 in the afternoon and were not anymore allowed to enter because they'll be closing at 5 pm.Waah,nakaka-frustrate.Nasayang lahat, effort, oras at pera.Peste kasing English paper yan eh.Ba't kasi hindi na lang i-accept yung Collection of Readings namin?
Baka tuloy pumunta pa kami sa UP sa Monday,take note,may palaka akong dala nun,kamusta naman?
Ayoko na.Yung eyebags ko humihingi na talaga ng saklolo.I miss my bed. :(

Buti na lang,we've already submitted our Chapter 3 in Filipino.We just have to discuss about our defense which will be next week.SUICIDAL WEEK 'TO.


OT:

I miss him na. :(

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Tomorrow is our semi-final exam in Zoology 111.I'm actually done reviewing but parang lahat ng nireview onti lang ang pumasok sa utak ko, it seems that my Cerebral Cortex isn't functioning well.Wuhhoo.Ganito ang epekto ng stressed-out sa school,pati surface ng Cerebrum ko kinukulikat ko na.Syeett.Epitaxis na ito, other term for Nosebleed.Nyahaha.

Ay teka, hindi nga pala kasama ang Nervous System sa topics for exam, report ko nga pala yun.Hay naku, isang malaking good luck sa visual aid ko.Pa'no naman kasi, hindi kami nakapagpa-reserve ni Abby dear sa AVR para sa reporting. At saan ako makakaita ng Anastamosis? (alternative route of blood). Kelangan ko din ng alternative route.Grabe na ito, iba na talaga epekto ng Zoology sa'kin.

Meron pang lab quiz.Kumusta naman ang Dorsal Parts ng muscles ng palaka?at kelangan talaga na oral yun noh?tusukin ang muscle parts ni Froggywoowiie ko, na medyo nung nag-skinning of the frog kami eh may na-tear out na muscle sa bandang leeg?kawawa naman palaka ko, hubad na nga, malnourished na, tutusukin pa.Halos third degree murder na yun ah.

At, may Filipino paper pa kami, na ipapasa ang chapter 3 sa Friday.Bale 5 kami sa grupo e, pero bakit parang 3 lang kaming gumagawa?Irvin?Nathaniel?Hindi kayo nakokonsensya?Baka naman kahit pano gusto n'yo mag-donate ng onting barya (abuloy na ito) para sa pag-print ng paper NATIN, kahit yun na lang tulong n'yo,pwede?Grrrr. :x

At isa pa, (grabe ang dami) may English paper pa kami.Waaaah.Punta pa kami sa UP Lib sa Friday after class para mag-research about Shiitake Mushroom.Bakit naman kasi kulang pa kami ng Collection of readings?Ayoko na.
Yung eyebags ko humihingi na ng tulong, as in kelangan na n'ya. :(

AYOKO NA TALAGA.I NEED A BREAK.MAY BREAK BA?NGARAG NA NGARAG NA AKO.
PARUSA NA ITOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

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Yes,I had my layout done na.So girly with full of sweets, since this past few days, I've been craving for sweets. Actually, tomorrow will be our Semi-Final exam in CE 102 and I haven't even scan my notes, I'm such a crammer.tsk.

Piles of paperworks are waiting for me.Filipino paper, English paper and my everdearest Zoology report.
I swear, my Zoology prof is fond of having last minute changes,ack!She's generous in giving grades though. ;)

This week is a HELL WEEK.

And plus, my heart is temporarily in the Intensive Care Unit.Things are messed up,I may say.

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